To : my son's absent father.
I don't want to hate you. I really dont. I dont even want to think about you.
You don't deserve my time or energy any more, yet here I am. It frustrates me even more knowing that you don't even give a second thought towards anything. While I'm struggling to understand my own emotions over YOUR decisions.
Some days I'm at an "okay" place, not bad, not good.. just okay. Sometimes, I even try to be happy for you....
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My Dearest Young Lady,
If you’re reading this, then there is a good possibility that you’ve already received a Calling of some sort. Maybe you feel Called to lead a congregation of your own, or maybe to be another type of religious leader, or even a non-religious position. You may also have been told that this is not something you can do, because of your gender. I was once in that position myself. When I was 8 years old, I went to a Southern Baptist church camp with my cousins one summer, where I was told that I couldn’t follow what I felt was my Calling to the ministry, simply because I was “just a girl.” My heart was broken, and at that point I decided I could no longer belong to a faith that felt I was worth less than a boy. However, a few years ago, I found a church that actually...
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Dear Jackie Rowlands,
This will also be published on my blog.
When you put the phone down on me and try to 'bounce'(block) my emails, it doesn't make your safeguarding failure or the abuse of me by the Bishop of Winchester go away, it compounds it. You are knowingly in the wrong and knowingly allowing a very very serious safeguarding failure to continue as well continuing to fail to remove and bring to justice wrongdoers such as the Bishop, the CEO of the Diocese of Winchester, and others.
Firstly let me explain to the general public what you are doing that is wrong.
I am the victim of repeat abuses and cover-up in the Diocese of Winchester, you are aware of this, and aware that the Bishop has done very open and outstanding wrong against me, and you have never contacted me...
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I have noticed that in our society, there is a “normal.” People are constantly judging every little thing we say or do and answering the same question in their head first. Was that normal or weird? For some reason, people think that they can determine what is normal or weird based on what most people do around them. Anything out of the ordinary can cause a first impression to go from great to terrible making that person to decide that they want to stay away from you forever. This issue in our community causes a lot of sadness and separation around us. People start to aim their social skills so that they can present themselves to others as normal as possible rather than just being themselves. The only people they can fully be themselves around are their true friends. This makes...
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Dear Mom and Dad,
You love to remind me that our religion encourages a judgment-free mindset. Though, many times I actually feel most judged by you, and it can hurt. So, here is one thing, at the least, that I need you to understand: colors have no gender.
Pink is not a girl, neither is purple, or red, or orange, or yellow, or green, or blue, or brown, or black, or grey, or any other color of the millions of colors visible to the human eye. Also, blue does not equal boy, neither does purple, or red, or orange, or yellow, or green, or brown, or black, or grey, or any other color out of the millions of colors visible to the human eye.
I know that you know colors have no gender, because when the sky is rid of clouds and the only thing visible for miles is clear soft blue, both...
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I live in a small town where the law has no laws to follow,where you have to have friends in order to be considered for anything,or you must be quit in order to be left alone. Why is it that no one is thinking about the people who has done the grunt work for hundreds of years before we were turned into the stuff of nightmares, lazy,uneducated,murdering drug user, and it was all done while we were begging for the same chance everyone else wanted and felt as if it was there right.The people in power ignored us and the people who made it possible for them to be who and what they wanted to be.You say the middle class is the foundation of America, you have forgotten middle class is the foreman the man who supervise the man that does the manual labor,we make it possible for you to be the top 1...
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I get it. The Catholic Church has taken numerous (albeit well-deserved) public relations hits over the past decades due to their handling (and cover-up) of pedophile priests. And despite the Vatican’s insistence that Catholicism is growing faster than the actual world population growth, there continue to be signs and reports that state just opposite. So, I get it – damage control needs to be done. Someone needs to stand up and convince its’ followers that all is well, and that the Catholic Church can be relied on to bring people into a relationship with God. It’s what any good politician or social leader would be saying to his constituents after sexual, or financial, misconduct were uncovered and brought to light. “It’s okay. Yeah, it makes us look bad . . . and maybe we should...
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The moment has come to realize the power of You. The moment has come to drop labels, judgements, identities, and anything else that has covered up the real You. This moment has come as the present moment. Where every moment comes from and comes as. You shall no longer regard yourself as the victim, you are the master. To regard yourself as the victim will continue your never ending cycle of suffering that you have been stuck in for as long as you can remember, as a victim your suffering is somehow out of your control and you need someone or something to save you. It may be questioned that if you are such a master of your mind then why is it constantly bringing you down making each day a trudge to the finish, an arduous game that you always seem to lose? Because you are the master. You...
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A letter to Bishop Peter Hancock Regarding his unsuitability as Safeguarding Representative for the Church of England while he has upheld and employed a criminal abuser
Dear Peter Hancock,
When I saw you using the Peter Ball case to preen yourself and masturbate your ego in public, I had no idea that you had taken over from Paul Butler in the public preening and misleading over safeguarding position, and when I found out, I was horrified, because there has been no justice in my case, and you have been part of the injustice, in employing the man who had me destroyed for his abuser friend.
You employed Bob Key according to these articles below, and there was this disgusting show for a man who has committed very serious and criminal wrongs which destroyed a lone vulnerable adult...
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You wanted to know the truth, here it is the truth.
I have been in MK ULTRA for many years. I have plans to reveal all the truth years from now. But God put in my heart to do it now. So here it is. Many people have said they want to know. They want knowledge. If you want knowledge I will give you knowledge. More knowledge that you can take. I will give you knowledge here that will be useful for you and the family if you want to use it. The question is can you handle the truth and the consequences of it.
Before I continue I want to say God, Jesus Christ put on my heart to put this message out. Many people say I’m layer deceiver and so on. I cannot control what other people think and do is not my business. If you don’t believe I’m talking the truth please go away. Don’t listen to this...
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