Dear Childhood Best Friend,
At 18 years old, We graduated high school and I went on a camping trip to say good bye for the last time to some of my friends before we parted ways and went off to college. I met the love of my life that weekend. He was older and friends with my friend’s boyfriend. He was everything I didn’t know I needed and more.
That summer changed my whole life. I went off to college and quickly realized that I was alone for the first time ever. I reached out everyday to you. At first, things were fine. I got lots of texts telling me that I wasn’t alone as I thought I was. But that only lasted a week or so. As time went on you drifted away.
At 19 years old, the boy I met camping became my boyfriend. My first REAL boyfriend. I was head over heals and felt invinsable. He introuduced my to his friends and they immediately made me feel like I was welcomed and accepted. I introduced him to you and you ignored and judged him.
At 20 years old, my boyfriend and I went on our first family vacation. My family and your family rented a house and headed to the beach. That week you decided that you didn’t even want to give him a chance. To this day I still don’t know why.
At 21 years old, my boyfriend became my fiancé. I couldn’t be happier. He asked my parents for my hand in marriage and they did’t hesitate to say yes. The first person I called to tell the happy news was you. Your response was “Are you sure he’s the one?”. My face turned beat red and my heart started to pound into my ears. All I could get out was “Yes, I am sure”.
At 22 years old, it was my turned to pop a question. I thought long and hard and I picked the 5 girls I wanted to be my bridesmaids in my dream wedding. The line up was as followed, my high school best friend as maid of honor, you, your sister, my mom’s best friend’s daughter, and my little sister. These five girls were/are everything to me. But you and your sister decided that my choice of maid of honor was the wrong choice. You two did everything you could to make me feel like I betrayed you somehow. But how could I ask someone to my my maid of honor when I knew you didn’t want anything to do with my soon-to-be husband.
You were right. My maid of honor turned out to be the most unhelpful person imaginable but instead of trying to make me feel better, you turned it into a I told you so moment.
At 23 years old, it was time for the real wedding festivities to begin! It was suppose to be the most memorable moments of my life. And trust me I will never forget them. You decided somewhere down the line to just give up. I ended up planing my own wedding shower and my own bachelorette party. Once again I was completely crushed.
Fast forward to the big day. The day I finally got to say I do to the love of my life. I told my maid of honor that I didn’t want her to make a speech but you decided that you would make one instead. You did this without telling me or anyone for that matter. You embarrassed my maid of honor. Her and I haven’t had the same relationship since. Thanks for that by the way.
3 months later and more exciting things start to happen. My husband and I found out that we are expecting our first child! I once again call you before any other friends to tell you the happy news and all you have to say is “Was this planned?”. My heart is beating so fast i can hear the blood rushing through my body. I told you it was planned and I was happy. I quickly ended the conversation.
Here I am at 24 years old. I’m 6 months pregnant with my baby girl and I haven’t heard from you in months.
Why? Why did you decide that because my life didn’t end up the way yours did that I wasn’t good enough for you anymore?
Sincerely,
Crushed by Her Childhood Best Friend
