We used to do everything together and not a day would go by that I wouldn't speak to you. We'd be at your house every weekend because you didn't like spending the night anywhere else. I knew everything about you and you knew everything about me. But now we never speak and I see you with your group of friends that I don't think would ever approve of me. I mean I used to be friends with one or two of them but the others they couldn't stand me.
We used to be so close and I admired how you never let anyone over look you and always spoke your mind and you didn't worry about who heard. I always wanted to be more like that but I never could be. I would try to say things with the same confidence you did but I was too afraid. At the same time that I admired that it also scared me , I was afraid of getting into trouble or having people not like me. Because, you and I both know that I was afraid of losing friends because I didn't think anyone but you liked me. You were my only friend and all of that changed.
We used to know everything about each other. I knew your favorite color and all of you fears and you'd tell me about your favorite wrestlers even if I had no idea about them. I knew your deepest fears and you knew mine. You knew how I didn't think that I was worth anything and you knew how I felt about just about anything.
I miss our friendship but at the same time I don't. Even though we had our good times I hate to say that you were mean. You would tell me something to do and I'd do it because I was afraid of what would happen. I remember you told me to come with you one time and when I didn't want to you pulled me along by my hair. At the time I over looked it but once I started becoming a second thought I realized and remebered all the little things that you did.
In the slim chance that you see this and you know that it's about you just remember I don't hate you. We may not be friends anymore and we may not talk but I don't hate you and at some times I miss being your best friend but I don't see how much good this would do because you have kaylie now and you have Kirsten. But just know that you can still call and I'd answer. If you texted and need me I'd be there. We may not talk anymore but I'd be there for you.
