Friends; If you consider yourself one, then, Hi! I'm happy for that decision. I want to say thank you to each of you. For giving me the will to write this message. I know friendship isn't about talking always, but I feel that none of you talks to me unless I start. You say you miss me but all you do is say and not do. Soon, I'll be gone. I am very much excited to meet new ones but don't worry, I'll remember you if you are my real friends.
Family; sorry if I never told you any of my problems or any of the things I feel. Sorry if I don't tell you that I am trying everything to distract myself from anxiety and depression. I hope I find a therapist when I have the money. Sorry if I lied to you, I did not mean it and I'm praying that you'll forgive me and that God forgives me from the lies I have told you. Sorry for being not enough, for being not everything you've expected me to be.
To people who know be a.k.a as people who do not know my story; you are very much lucky enough because you don't have me as your stupid friend. You are very much blessed.
People I have hurt; Sorry for hurting you. If you know me enough, you know that I always have a good reason. I hope you forgive me.
People who truly love me; thank you verymuch but I feel that I don't deserve to be loved by you. I only thank God for loving me very much but I also thank each of you for not giving up on me, but I think it is about time.
Internet friends; sending all my love from me, thank you for being my virtual friends. For sharing the love to a person we support and for giving me a chance for myself to socialize.
This is not a suicidal note. But rather a note written because of depression and anxiety. I know I can pass through this because God is with me. This is because I want to express myself.
With love and happiness, J.
