You decided one day my father & I were not good enough. You took my older sisters away from me & ran as far as you could.
You decided to just leave with no explanation, no reason for me.
I am the daughter you left behind. I am the forgotten one. Was it easy for you? How could you pick up & leave just one of your kids behind you?
For years, I've wondered & tried to figure out what I did. I have always wanted to know why I wasn't good enough for you. Always felt the need to know what was so wrong with me that my own mother didn't want me?
I was 7 when you left, going into second grade. Now I'm 17, about to start my senior year. You missed my plays, my talent shows, my first prom. You missed out on talking about being a girl, on boys.
You weren't there to teach me what I needed a mother to teach me. My father is a wonderful man for stepping up, yet there's so much he can't teach me.
A mothers love is forever, & a daughters love is forever too.
There isn't a day I don't think about you, but I'm growing up, & I've been growing up without you for so long. You missed out on watching your baby girl grow.
Life is full of choices, you made yours. You left. One day, I'll forgive you for leaving me the way you did. One day, you leaving won't hurt so much. Until that day, it will hurt & I will live with this. But you are a coward for running.
I hope life ended up exactly how you wanted it to be. Because even though you let me down in the worse way, I wouldn't wish you the worst. I wish you the best you can find.
I hope you find whatever it was that made you leave.
