Dear ex best friend,
I know that both of our paths are no longer intertwined. What bothers me the most is we proved them right, those who said this is just a honeymoon phase. We proved them right. Even after promising each other, spending long nights on call gossiping and spilling our secrets, running off from home to keep our sanity intact we couldn’t make it. Why couldn’t we make it? I would have given everything to keep us the same but I guess this was the problem, friendship is always a two way street. I came to meet you in the middle in fact I took more steps than I should have taken. I don’t want to play the victim card here but today when I saw those flashbacks on my Snapchat I just couldn’t help but to try and hate you. And man did I fail at it. It sounds awful but I just couldn’t handle missing you I thought hating you would be easier to miss you but I was so wrong because I can never hate you neither do I regret what we had. And it’s not fair. It’s not fair to you or to me. I don’t know if you think about it as much as I do. Maybe you don’t. Maybe you do. Guess I’ll never know, will I? I can’t possibly know anything now. Maybe I feel it too much because I expected too much and we know how the saying goes; expectation leads to disappointment.
In the end I would just like to thank you for giving me those beautiful memories. I can’t help but hope that you miss me as much as I miss you.
With love,
Your ex best friend
