There are many people this letter could be about. But there's one person in particular who taught me what true friendship was. Taught me how to have fun at work and how you can't judge a person by how they look or act.
We had many deep talks in the shoe department, yes. The shoe department. It was my safe haven because I knew whatever mood I was feeling you would find a way to make me happy and restore me. Over these three months we've gotten extremely close. It was one night, a little over a year ago that you taught me not to judge a person right away. I thought you hated me up until that night when I told you I was going to kill myself that exact night. I thought you'd be the happiest to see me go. But no, you got HR to call 9-1-1, then met me in the hospital after your shift. You handed me a green 'love note' you called it. I still have, it's in my bedside table along with other things that mean a lot to me. It was that night I learned you cared.
The last month has been pretty great, we went to a home football game together. You yelled at some kids from the other team for cheering over us. You saw your brother for the first time in a couple years. It was one of the best days because I knew you were a true friend and that this friendship wasn't fake.
But now, I feel like you've been pulling away, I think I'm falling into that state I was in one month ago. I've tried reaching out to you but you've been ignoring all my messages. You've pulled away since you went on vacation. I replaced you the week you were away because I didn't want to bother you on vacation but now, I haven't given that replacement up because you're still not fully back. I have more support now than one month ago and I have you to thank for that.
You've taught me more than anyone else has, this friendship was different. But all good things come to an end, you're pulling away and I'm chasing. But I'm tired, I want to stop chasing. I have other support systems. This is my goodbye. I will never forget what you did for me. I will always be here for you whether you can see me or not.
I will always be truly thankful, but I think it's time to move on.
- 8.27.16 -
