Dear dad,
There are many things I would like to call you but I won't. To the things you've done to me in the past that have made me so scared and broken that I have trust issues with my current boyfriend.
To the time I was 3 months old and you abandoned my mom and I for no absolute reason.
To the time when I was 3 and you told me my mom didn't love me because she was trying to get full custody of me.
To the time you got a new girlfriend when I was 5 and had my amazing little sister then left her mom and broke her just like you broke my mom.
To the time you let me stay up till 11 when I was 7 and said I had to sleep in or there would be consequences and when I couldn't sleep in you locked me in my room all day.
To the time you got another girlfriend with 2 kids and then cheated on her and I couldn't even say goodbye to my new brothers.
To the times I would show up at your house every second weekend and you wouldn't be home because you were out late the night before partying.
To the times you would sleep when you only had 3 hours to spend with your daughters.
To the time you yet again brought another girl home who lived in England and told us you were marrying her and moving to England leaving us.
To the time you called me 6 months later saying "there were to many issues" and you divorced her and moved back like nothing happened.
To the time I was 9 and you grounded me for three weeks for spilling your beer and saying there's no such thing as accidents.
To the time I didn't want to sleepover at your house so I bawled my eyes out and you kept telling me to shut up.
To the time you tried to guilt me into going to see your mom who I won't even call grandma because she hasn't been there once. You said to me "you may never see her again" well I never saw her before that either.
To the weekends I would get dropped off at your house and cry the entire time because I was scared.
To the times I had to get my little sister to ask you questions for me because I was terrified of your response.
To the times you didn't pay child support and left my mom and I broke.
To the time you brought us to dinner and introduced us to another girl and her four kids and then moved in with her then cheated on her and blamed everything on everyone else around you.
To the time you said you'd come to my soccer games and you never showed up.
To the time in New York City when you called me a pussy and an idiot for crying when you yelled at me.
To the time I tried to help you with directions and you called me annoying.
To the three months after that you completely ignored me.
To the time last week you told me I'm stupid if I don't go to university.
To the time you told me becoming a nurse it too hard and I won't make it.
For the time before I started high school I got diagnosed with anxiety and found out you were the source of my trust issues and the source of all of my issues. This is to you dad. You have yet another girlfriend so I hope you're happy. I'm 15 years old and you've damaged me. Thankyou.
From, your 15 year old daughter.
