Dear Best Friend,
By the time you are reading this you will be on the way to your next destination. Over the last few weeks I have been filled with many emotions. Selfishly, sadness is the one I remain at. I see you almost everyday and I just haven't found the strength to be okay with you leaving. I wanted to take a little bit of time to share how special you are to me. This open letter is out of my comfort zone so bare with me while explain a few things. You already know many reasons I call you my best friend but I'm going to give you a few more that you didn't know about. A better way to describe our friendship would be to say that you saved me. I see how strong you are and just admire you for it. No matter what comes your way...you never let it take you down. You're attitude is always positive (sometimes annoyingly positive lol) and you always see the bright side of things. I love that about you. Over the last few years you have helped mold me into a better person. What you didn't know is my whole life I've felt different, almost like a monster. You know better than anyone how my anger can get the best of me. The people that surround me were mainly around for a fun time. None of them truly had my best interest at heart. Most days I contemplated life. Wondering if everyone would just be better off without me. I felt I had no value and wasn't worthy of happiness. Darkness would consume me until, eventually, I was just waiting for the time I would exit this world. When you came into my life for the first time I was facing struggles that I never thought I would shake. As we got closer, you started to fight the struggles for me. Whether it be through prayer, defending me, or showing my value to the guy I desperately wanted approval from, I felt you fighting for me. There were times that I just cried until I couldn't cry anymore and you sat with me and made it okay. My lonely world became not-so-alone. You will never know how it felt to finally have someone who understood me. You never judged me. Every bad decision I made, and we both know I've made a lot, you only defended me. Although, I wasn't usually right. Many times you would randomly compliment my life and it made me push through another day. You showed me that I was worthy of love, happiness, and life. I knew God sent you here for me because you were a light in my world of darkness. You still are sometimes. I was so mad at God when I knew you were leaving. My selfish thoughts took over. He knew I needed you. Why would he take you away? Then, he opened my eyes and heart. I could never be so selfish. This move is to better your family, how dare I be upset! Especially when I love them just as much as I love you. If you touch just ONE more life the way you have touched mine, you will have saved another soul. I am at a better place because of you. Last year, I hated everything and everyone. BUT, by the end of the year, I was back at peace and came out on top. It was you who taught me to fight back. I can never thank you enough. If you ever question how strong you are, just think of me. Because you saved me more times than I can count. You may not know it yet but you are an angel walking this earth, Angelique. I truly believe you were on a mission when you came to North Carolina, and you have mastered it. Thank you for the unconditional love you have showed me.
I love you to the moon and back a million times.
The life you saved