I'm not even sure where to start...I guess with, regardless of everything that has happened, I miss YOU. I'm not sure what we ever did to you to make you handle things you way you did, but i wish it would have been different. I wish you would have come to us, and trusted us. I wish all of you who say you love our son so much, would've taken the time to find out about his disorder, and find out how to help him heal. Instead, everyone believed I was the evil one, and enabled this horrible disorder, enabled it to make him hurt and suffer more than he already was. You tried to take our son! You had no right to do that! And then if that wasn't enough, you tried to get this sweet boy back with this horrible monster that did this to him. What did we ever do to deserve that? What did I ever do to you do deserve that? When i came here, I had no family except my husband ,our daughter and this damaged boy that i was trying to help.. and I thought I had you. But the more i met people, and the more they talked, the more i realized, i never had you. No matter what I did, it was never good enough, I was never good enough. My heart was shattered, i had a new sister, and she thought nothing of me, and wanted nothing more than to hurt me. But at the end of the day, the thing that hurts me most is, in the attempt of ruining me, you have ripped your brothers heart out, and the nephew that you claimed to be helping, wants nothing to do with you. My husband has lost a sister, and both of our children have lost their aunt. Satan played a big role in that one.
I forgive you. I forgive you for me. I forgive you so i can get rid of this enormous amount of rage and hate that i was carrying around.
It is unfortunate that my family has lost an important piece, and my heart will forever hurt knowing the pain you have caused my family, knowing that your parents will never have all their children sit down together for dinner again.
Although i can never trust you again, i just want you to know that i truly miss you, my forever lost sister.
