I miss you, and you'll never know. I still think about you and how we just stopped talking because I thought you didn't need me. But you look so happy now and me well I still can't look at all the photos we took and think about all our memories without falling apart. I hope your well and I can't seem to talk to you face to face or even text you even though I almost do. "Our songs" we had come on and all I remember is the day of your Halloween party lying in the street and reenacting the notebook scene. When I go to six flags I think about the roller coaster I forced you on to help you get over your fear. I still think about the day we spent at the water park and me losing my iPod touch and how you were more freaked out then I was. I still make my bed and put all the stuff animals you won me on it. I don't know if I'll ever find someone like you but I don't think I want to because your irreplaceable in the best way possible. I'm a freshman thinking about where I want to go to college and when I think about my future plans I think about the crazy future plans we made, going to UCLA and having a dancing bull dog even though we both didn't want a bull dog. I still have the ring you gave me when you proposed to me to ask me to be your "ig wifey". Late at night I sit outside and think about how you would hide a bag outside my house filled with my favorite things for me to go find at night. All of our memories stand out to me but I have to say my favorite when you came to my house after a big fight we had in the pouring rain while it was thundering just to make sure I was alright and not crying. Your biggest fear is thunderstorms and you rode your bike all the way to the other side of town to make sure I was alright. You became like a sister to me and I hate that you will never know I miss you like crazy and that I still think of you or go to your moms grave to talk to her , I hate that you'll never know that I'm always going to be here for you and I hate that you will never know I love you so much because you changed my life for the better you thought me to not care about what others think. You thought me to overcome my insecurities and that I can make my dreams come true. I miss you and I love you and I'm so grateful I had you in my life, thank you everything.
