To My Close Friend

Dear Spencer, You know me. We have thought about our future together, how we will always be friends till the end. But, now, I don't know if that is possible. You were the first person to hear about everything, you were the first person I would ask when something is wrong, you were the one that I have showed practically every single raw emotion to. I realize that I was not making a bond with you, I realized that all the things I tell you, reaches to someone else. When I told you about the one that I thought was meant to be, you announced it, you yelled it, and worst of all, you wanted people to know that you knew. Garnering attention with my emotions, just brings much more than you think. Saying that "you do not like showing emotions," like you are proud, but the truth is, there is NO reason to be proud. I will tell you, those who do not tell how they truly feel, live a sad life. Having to hold everything in, and tell everyone about it, except the person the emotions are toward to. Let me tell you something, that person will no longer want to hold ties with you, because they realize that you are scared, you are not willing to go up and tell them how you truly feel. When you toyed with my emotions, giving me hope, and then dragging me down, to the life of darkness, fear, hopelessness. And then telling me, "it was no big deal." When you wanted to be the best, but realized I was, "in the way." But, I was cheering you on from start to finish. I was telling you that life would be okay, and that you would and will be the best. We said that we were the Dynamic Duo, best together. But, why do you bring me down? Why must you never show emotions? Why must you think you are better? Why must you toy with my emotions, as if they were nothing? Like most of your answers to me, my answer to these questions are, "I don't know." We are still kids. We are still teenagers. I don't know the purpose of this letter, but I guess, as every kid, like me says, "it is just because." Love, Jordan