I was always the typical “daddy’s girl” when I was much younger, I think a little bit of me is still today. I don’t easily hold grudges which is why I can’t dislike you, like I should. I would be upset when I would have to leave you from visiting you every other weekend. I would be upset if you couldn’t make the three hour drive to see my brother and I because you chose having another family over seeing us for just three days. When we had sports you were ticked off that you had to take us or sit and watch us play an hour of the sport(s) that we loved.
Because of your absentness, I have to give all props to my amazing mother for taking up both roles and supporting us. Because of you my mom had to work twice as hard to support having two children in two different sports. Because of you I have to admire my mother for all the sleepless nights that I know she has had but won’t admit. Because of you she had to miss out on meeting up with old friends to make sure she could be the best mother she could ever be, which she has definitely exceeded. Because of you she was broken but made sure my brother and I never knew something was wrong.
Now I’m in college and you’re trying now. But trying doesn’t fix the past, you hurt me and made me feel bad when other kids would talk about their parents when I only had my mom. You never made it to my high school graduation, which hurt more than you could ever imagine. I’m trying to be successful and the only person I can owe anything to is my mom. You didn’t help me get to where I am, she did. What hurts the most is that you have a son with your wife that you will be there for throughout his entire life, you’ll see him graduate, you’ll send him off to college, and you’ll watch him grow like you never watch your first two kids grow.
