Your actions are based on pure delusion.
There are 9,831.510 of us, on a territory of 322,762.018 square kilometers.
You cannot kill us all. Yes, you can hurt and kill a few (remember there are millions of us) and it is very sad for the families.
But you are just doing the easy stuff. Killing yourself and taking a few people with you is easy.
Blowing up a building or a dam, that's easy.
Chopping someone else head off is easy. There is nothing original about it.
Building a dam, a city, a road, care for others, that's hard.
Wake up to the futility of your actions and try something else for a change.