To the father that loved partying more than his child
I feel sorry for you. I feel sorry that you like drugs and partying more than you love your child, I feel sorry that you have missed her first smile, her first laugh, I feel sorry that she doesn't cry for you attention, I feel sorry that you will miss many other things her life, I feel sorry that you can't be the father she needs. I feel sorry that when she's older she's going to hate you. I feel sorry that she deserves better than someone like you. The thing is that one day she will have a father figure in her life.
She will have some other man whom she calls when she's in trouble or when she needs to feel love. You won't be the person she depends and I feel sorry for that too. I feel sorry that when the party is over and you have grown up it could be too late. I feel sorry that you can't recognize these things or maybe you do and don't care. I feel sorry that you think it's more important to miss the party than to miss her life.. What I don't feel sorry for ? All the Christmas concerts, sports games, dance recitals.
All the extras cuddles, kisses, phone calls I will get, all the times she tells me she loves me and that I love her, all the times she calls me mom, all the times she looks up to me, all the accomplishments and milestones I get to be a part of, all the time she looks for me in a crowded room to be her security, all the times she knows I'm her biggest fan and especially all the times I missed the party to be the biggest part in her life.
