This letter goes out to everyone who took me for granted & didn't appreciate me or the things I did.
Most of the time I wonder why no one appreciates me & why they always take me for granted. I think most of the answer comes from my good heart. I don't want to sound self centered but I would love to have someone like myself in my life. I've been hurt to the point where I feel absolutely nothing on most days & that's because I just let people use me because I know what it feels like to feel worthless & I don't want another soul to feel that pain. I'm kind of like a drug, people want me only when it's convenient for them.
It's sad because that's kind of my purpose. I just want to help people escape but I'm so exhausted of getting nothing in return. I think the only reason I'm alive is because I want to make sure everyone is ok before I die. I just want to be the person I needed. I want to be remembered exactly as my heart shows me to be. I just have this feeling that one day I'm going to go to far trying to save someone & I'm going to lose myself completely & I won't be here anymore. I don't even understand why I'm alive anymore. I'm exhausted to the point where sleep can't fix it. I naturally wake up drained. I give too much of myself to people who don't deserve me but that's just who I am.
I've written other letters but I never really said what I wanted to say. All I want to say is, to those of you who left my life & didn't provide an explanation, whatever happens to me, all I ask is that you tell everyone how good of a heart I had. Tell everyone how pure my intentions were towards everyone. Don't lie about the purity & greatness of my heart to boost your ego. Make sure you tell the world how much I loved everyone despite their flaws. Please just tell the world that I was one of a kind. Just know that I tried to help everyone that I could & to me, that's all that matters.
Love, Maddie
