To the guy whom i love and cherish the most, to the guy whom im willing to sacrifice my all, the word i hate you and yet still loving you is the best thing that i can tell you right now. I hate you for taking me for granted and yet i love you cause you did.
I hate you for always scolding me and telling me how childish i was and yet i love it cause it means that youre still connected with me.
I hate you for always telling me how stupid and naive i am but still i love you cause i really do.
I hate you for thinking i dont love you.
I hate you for not seeing my worth and yet im still here waiting for you to see right thru me.
Theres almost a lot of reasons for me to hate and despise you, and yet im here still beside you for better or for worst. I may not be your first wife neither am i your only lover but still i want you to know that im here, if everything falls apart, even if you go bankrupt or somewhat, im still here, even if how many times you say you despise how i am, im still here, i will never leave you unless i see you with someone whom really care and wont abandon you like some of them do, our age gap was nothing to me, your 45 im 22 youre an fully grown man and im just a kid at heart kind of woman, even if some people talk shits about us being in this kind of relationship im still here for you, cause i know that in time you'll be needing me too, and when that time comes, i'll be there right beside you smiling and reassuring you with my always so goofy smile that " im here, everything will soon be okay"
You hate my war freak attitude and asked me to change, and here i am still trying to change myself, not because you've asked me to but because i wanted too as well ,
You hated me for being a cold hearted person and yet you didnt know that everytime we argue and fight it hurts me too, behind my none reaction facial expression is a woman with loads of emotions, and yes im trying to change that.
You knew how dark my past is, from my childhood to teen years, and you know the reason thru my coldhearted persona and here you are still believing that i can still change. You thought that im not loving you enough when in reality, i already forgot how to love myself cause im too busy loving you.
All i hope and all i could ask for is for you to see right thru me, for you to know that im also a human being, capable of being hurt, know how to shed tears and also dying to feel the love that i think i deserve. But im not gonna push you onto loving me back the way i did, im contented to how you show your love for me even if its not in the slightest "romantic nor sweet" im contented and happy as long as your with me and im with you, and now i guess its true, that even if your inlove, you are still capable to be brokenhearted at the same time. Your like a toxic to my heart and yet im still willing to take even if it breaks me apart.
