I GET JEALOUS BECAUSE I AM AFRAID.
I've never loved myself the way you claim to love me.Never have I once looked at myself and thought I was anywhere near perfection.My insecurities have made it nearly impossible for me to view myself anything other than just her.I'm just that one girl..So why would you stay with me when there's other girls whom are confident in their looks and personality?
It scares me to think that maybe one day you'll see what I see.You'll realize what I already know.I love you more than anyone ever will so to see you go would destroy what little confidence I do have.Everytime I see a post that she makes I wonder how much better she'd be for you.She is so outgoing and beautiful..her confidence makes her glow!
When you talk about her I know I start to push you away.I act distant and hurt when in reality I'm just sad that you're starting to realize she's better.I don't mean to let her get between us but I can't help but act this way.When you know someone could treat the one you love better it tears your insides out.Your heart feels crushed under pressure and you never feel good enough.I know that she can treat you better and bring more to your life than I ever could but I promise you I'll always love you more.
My jealousy has made it nearly impossible for us to be together.For that I'm sorry..maybe it's time you move on.Move on to curly blonde hair,light green eyes,a glowing tan,a cheerful spirit,and a never dying smile.
