Before you embark on your journey down the isle, I wanted to express this blessing upon you.
I hope you never experience fear from his temper. I hope you never catch him lying regarding who he is on the phone with. I hope you never hear his disgusted sigh regarding your tears or pain. I hope you never experience his aggressive drunk advances that cause you to fell uncomfortable for days after. I hope you never witness the exile of another friend because of his irritation with them. I hope you never see him in a fight, or witness the aftermath of him bloodied after. I hope you never have to waste tears wondering where he is, or why he wont respond to your calls when he should be next to you in bed. I hope you never become convinced to keep separate bank accounts, so he can lie about not having money. I hope you never have to support him and his dreams financially while he complains about paying for gas in your car. I hope you never find yourself living in filth after you learn you are the only one cleaning after him and his friends.I hope you will never learn of his doubts about your relationship every time his single friend convinces him it could be better. I hope he never causes destruction on your home because of some childish tantrum. I hope your needs are never pushed aside for his wants. I hope you never have to make excuses for his behavior in front of family and friends. I hope you never have to banish friends or family simply because he doesn't like them. I hope you are never made to feel lesser than your self worth at the expense of his cruel jokes in public. I hope you never fell the loss of a pregnancy while he plays video games to ignore you emotions. I hope you never feel alone in your pregnancy. I hope you never feel dismissed by your fears and worries during your pregnancy. I hope you never wait up all night 8 months pregnant wondering if he will ever come home. I hope you never feel overwhelmed or outnumbered during labor because he has invited all his family and friends in the room. I hope you never discover you are the last person to hold your baby for the first time after your extreme cesarean. I hope he never makes you feel like a failure if you struggle to breast feed for the first time. I hope you never experience becoming the only one to take care of the crying baby at 3 am, as well as you and the baby being the only ones awake before noon daily. I hope you never feel blamed every time you baby gets sick or develops a rash. I hope you never feel ugly or fat after giving birth, because to him your not working out and dieting enough to really care. I hope you never get brushed aside when expressing your concerns regarding his lack of involvement in you and your child's life. I hope you never experience his fake Super Dad and Best Husband Ever impression in front of friends and family. I hope he never tells you he loves you and your marriage passively and not honestly. I hope you never need to confront him on a suspicious friend flirting with you on social media, as he will tell you aggressively that you are delusional and paranoid. I hope he never tells you he wants a divorce because marriage and having children wasn't what he thought it would be, and that it wasn't for him. I hope you do not learn two weeks later that he is in a serious relationship with the suspiciously flirty friend on social media you were delusional about. I hope he never financially cripples you after he leaves stating he can't afford the child support determined by courts, but weeks later purchases a new car using the new vehicle you paid off weeks before he wanted the divorce as a trade in. I hope you don't have to max out a credit card for home improvement needs weeks before the divorce talk, only to be left with the burden after. I hope you never find after the divorces finalizes that he secretly had stocks and stashed money from you while married while you struggle to find where your child's milk money will come from. I hope you never experience working a full time job, while parenting alone, living in a scary complex, because that is what you can afford, while he lives off others, and pays half of his child support.
I hope you never experience any of these circumstances, because he did them to me and our child. I pray that the lord finds you happiness and love in your marriage to my Ex-husband.
