It all started out on that August day way back three years ago. I fell in love with your blue eyes and well back then short blonde hair. It wasnt til later I started talking to you about four months later. We clicked better then two attracted magnets. I instantly fell in love with the way your smile made your upper lip curl in and your smile was more tall then wide which just made it so cute. We instantly knew something was between us but the 100 miles that separated us kept us apart due to the young age of 12. I know I was young but I thought you were the one. Over the course of a couple months we became close talking about how we would date and all this romantic stuff. Then... we stopped talking for around 6 months due to you being grounded for getting in a fight. After six months, we got closer than ever... again. I knew I was screwed. We planned all these things that we knew would never happen but knowing we were in love we both continued on with our lives and dated other people.
Then, I got in my accident. We finally were reunited after my surgery and I fell even more in love with the way your hair curls to one side and how your eyes were just as blue as the sky on that clear day in July. Also, how you dressed with khaki shorts but with that hockey sweatshirt and sperrys. We went mini golfing the day after my surgery even though I could only use one hand you helped me. In and out of the car, going through doors, and everything we really did that day. A week later I introduced you to my best friend and thats when my hear shattered into a million pieces. You looked at her the way you use to look at me. You did the same gestures, the door opening, the help out of the car. You even kissed her, but not me.
See, what you dont know is I was completely and utterly in love with you. I cried all the time. To this day you guys do what we use to. Continue with your lives by seeing other people due to the distance but talk as youre in love. You guys have the relationship we use to. You guys have the connection, better than two attracted magnets. When you guys started talking, you made feel worthless, calling me crazy, and obsessed because I complained and cried about how I was losing you to one of my best friends. But, truth is you're my best friend. Here I am, one year later after you guys fell in love. You guys still are in love. You both get your license next month about a day apart. That is the day I will have no choice but to unfriend both of you because there will be the hookups and I will have to hear about from other friends because you both told them. You know I was in love with you and you knew what hurt me watching me go through depression and my accident. But what hurt most was watching the person I was in love with, fall in love with someone else.
Truth is, you will always have my heart, you will always be the one I wanna talk to about everything. You hurt me so many times and still continue to by talking to her but I am gonna look past it. Thank you for showing me that people can tell you they love you but go to someone else as soon as they see something that they have that you dont. Thank you for showing me my first heart break, thank you for showing me its okay to lose people, thank you for showing me friends arent forever and thank you for being my best friend for those three years but here it is. This is me showing you I dont need you like I used too. I never stopped loving you even though I have my own boyfriend to love now. You will always be my 'person' and my best friend. Have a good rest of your life, dont break her heart like you did mine.
