Dear Ex,
I know you will never read this lines because I won't share them with anyone, but I need to pour out a lot inside of me.
I am very sad with you and while I've answer to all your distress calls until now, I'm actually never going to do the same in the future. You lefted me for a navy officer 4 years ago, and you did to him what you did to me... the worst of all is that you decided to jump into a relation with a drug dealer...
I always feared you smoked too much shit and that you would end up as a junkie, in fact I saw you turning into a junkie but I never mentioned it neither judged you. I actually believed you were controlling the situation...
You know, a drug dealers girlfriend must be blind, deaf and mute... that's not you... but I suppose a large stash of marijuana helps...
I don't know the fairy tale he told you, and I suspect it's not only your addiction in play here... but you are not aware he also deals heavy shit, are you? Are you aware his brother is the one growing the marijuana and that it seems to be the family business?
Are you aware that there must guns in the house? I hope for your sake you remember what I told you about firearms and how to use them...
But things get nicer when his job is about 'security'... ties to the prostitution world, money laundring, crime world... For fuck sake, you are stupid...
I won't be there for the small things you were used, like phoning me... I don't want my lines tapped. You went down in the worst way possible.
I know you have money problems and you own a large amount to your ex-boyfriend. I know you live from your credit card and eventually you can't afford your flat the lifestyle you pretend to have. I see a bad ending...
I fear for you... While I can remove the debts from the table, I won't help with drug debts. I have now to wait for your downfall, so that then I can take you and close you up on a nice place so you can heal your addiction before releasing you to the world.
How could you forget your dreams? How could you neglect everyone that truly cared for you and jump into a drug dealer?
You ex boyfriend doesn't know half of the shit. You dumped him while he was on sea away from everything... You know, he is one of the pilots of a warship, do you think that's good for his job?
The guy is shattered. This makes two casualties you made, me and now him. I sense you are the next one to eat shit from the gutter in the future...
It saddens me a lot...
