To the women that is going to break my heart

It isn't fair to you. It isn't fair to me. Going in to this, we already saw the ending. The conclusion to this beautiful partnership we have created. Not a day goes by I don't think about you. About all of the fond memories we already have only four months into this. All of the help you've given me, all of the advice and long conversations. I honestly cherish every moment spent with you, but is it possible that's why it's so special? Almost equal to all of the time spent thinking about the good times, I think about the end. Is that why we have such quality time together? Is that why I love you in a way that I never thought was possible? I know I know. I'm being really sappy and corny. But, when most people break up there's a good reason. You know without a shadow of a doubt that they are not right for you. They are not your soulmate. When it ends for no such reason, questions arise and you have to ask yourself if you just lost the one. I do, however, want you to know how proud I am of you. I wish I was going away to college, I made a few mistakes I have to correct. I'm not the happiest person in the world, but you often make me feel that way. You're intelligent, beautiful, charismatic, anybody would feel this way to lose you. I'm not just losing my girlfriend, i'm really losing a best friend. Whenever something happens I go right to you. Who would have known from that deli that something like this would happen. There is a reason for this. Whether it's down the line something could come of it, or just now, this happened for a reason. This heartbreak is for a reason. I refuse to believe otherwise. Going to Hawaii is probably going to make the end harder, getting a taste of what it's like to live with you for two months, however, we are young. You have a lot of living to do. I would be holding you back, and I understand that. I wouldn't put up a crying fit and ask for a long distance relationship. I would never want to hold back your beautiful soul. I do think about the end, but it really is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. Whether in a few years we are back to being lovers, we are good friends, or back to strangers, I will never forget the woman that changed my life.