To My First Love: The missing Piece To Our Puzzle

Dear Derek, We never really talked about forever but I'm sure we both did not see this day coming. I mean of course couples get mad and think about breaking up but the idea of it actually happening and sticking to it is a whole different story. Right now as I'm righting this we've been broken up for only 2 days (almost) and it's going completely wrong. All I want to do is call you and tell you that I'm sorry and that I forgive you for the mistakes and that I'm on my way over to hug you and never let you go. That's just how I feel but I also feel like everything happens for a reason and if our breakup actually went through signed, sealed and stamped then maybe this is where we should be. I have been asking God why, how did we get to this point when we both loved each other no matter what? And standing there in the shower crying my heart out it all clicked, we did things wrong, wrong, wrong! It is certain that God wants to be the piece that we were missing and couldn't seem to find. I knew this for quite some time but I was scared that you would run at that moment, so subliminally I tried to include him but God is not subliminal whatsoever and his presence must be known at all times. We won't ever make sense to each other, we will never have a foundation, we will never truly love until He has to the keys to both of our hearts. If you want that missing piece go find it and bring it back to me, but first, take the time for yourself to realize that you have gained something really valuable, something not only for us but for you! I encourage you, my first love, that everything is going to be okay but seek God in this time of pain and confusion and all the pieces to our puzzle will fall into place. P.S. I'm at our spot in Panera writing this letter (Annas in your seat) almost in tears, I still ate all of my Greek Salad though.