I have had plenty of friends come and go. Some hurt more than others, but I realize now it's for the best that we went our separate ways. Girl friendships can be complicated and drama filled and downright mean.
You, on the other hand, were the best friend I've ever had. You were my other half. We went on vacations together, saw each other every day, and we're constantly texting. Even when we were on each other's nerves I still loved you. We survived fights, moving away, and anything else that tried to separate us.
But I never loved you like you loved me. When you joked around about us getting married I laughed along but I knew there was a hint of seriousness in your voice. I established that what we had was strictly friendship, and you respected that.
But I could never stop myself from getting jealous when you were with other girls. I told myself I just wanted what was best for you, but truthfully I don't know why I didn't speak up then. We never even dated but everyone knew just how much we loved each other.
I will never be able to explain how much you meant, and still mean to me. There are not enough words in the world to explain the impact you had in shaping who I am today.
I miss our long drives, staying up all night talking, our movie marathons, everything. I miss everything about you and I. You were the only person who knew everything about me. You saw me at my best and worst and still never gave up on me. We had a friendship that people only wished they could have.
Something in both of us changed, and if I could take that last fight back I would in a heartbeat. My biggest regret will always be losing you.
After that fight we never went back to normal. Why did we let what we had go? Was it both our faults? I will always blame myself.
I can't think about you anymore. I can't think about how you moved on, you love her now. I can't think about how you're perfectly fine without me in your life.
Do you miss me? Do you miss us? Do you hear our song come on the radio and thing of us driving down the highway at 3 am singing our hearts out? Do you remember all the memories we made, and planned?
I realized too late that I loved you. Part of me will always hope that we'll find our way back to each other. There is no other person who will be able to have my heart like you.
Sometimes I cry. When I think about our memories and your family, and how I have never felt more comfortable with another group of people. I cry when I find pictures of us, or see memories on Facebook thanks to timehop.
Even if I can never have you back, I want to thank you. You changed my life. You showed me what true friendship is, and unconditional love. I took that for granted but trust me, I've learned my lesson.
I hope your new girlfriend loves you even half as much as I do. I hope you find happiness with her like you did with me. I hope she can make you laugh, and your family treats her as well as they treated me.
You deserve all the happiness that you gave me and more. Thank you.
