Dear Grown Woman,
To no avail until now I had been searching for a way to address my anger, resentment, and hatred towards you for all the unnecessary drama you have caused since October 2015. I’ve tried so hard to let go of what you’ve done, but when you constantly have people looking at you differently as though you’ve done something wrong – then that, for me, has always seemed to get in the way. I could’ve written you a message on Facebook and sent it to you for you to ponder and hopefully understand where I’ve always been trying to come from, but you are a cowardice person who would simply ‘seen’ my message and carry on with your life with no decency whatsoever to send a reply. You’ve run from your problems several times before that I assume it has just become a part of your nature to carry on without caring about who you’ve hurt or who is affected. Heck, you couldn’t even take accountability for your part in this whole situation – instead you simply brushed the blame aside onto the person who had opened up this can of worms that we all understood to be resolved until we saw that uncalled for and unjustified status whilst you were away from here and where this person was.
Which right now makes me realize that it was in fact you who had opened up the can of worms by sharing with this person who then went on and opened it up to the whole world and enabled us to see all it is that you had gone and done. Your thoughtless actions have left me bipolar of sorts. Some days I can deal with the people who no longer look at me the same way, other days I would like to just switch off or snap and show them all it is you did – but why bother when they’ve always held you on a pedestal and are automatically biased to your version of events. I’ve expected this behaviour and have never been bothered by their different looks, until recently. With the Holy Week that has just passed, I feel people outside the realm of concern regarding this issue have become involved and only know your version of events – but why? I’ve never spoken of this issue to people who aren’t to be concerned, so why are you or anyone included in your bias doing just that? I don’t care enough about people not liking me to be able to go and involve others. I can hold my own. I’ve been raised well enough to be able to put on a front and show some respect to these people regardless of whether I like them or not. I have one job to do here, and I do it to the best of my abilities without a cloud of doubt in my mind to not execute my job properly just because so and so don’t like me. Someone has to do it. What bugs me the most with this entire situation is the way you’ve been behaving since then, and the actions of those who have taken your version of events as a way to dislike me (so be it) and therefore attempt to push around those who don’t share the same view as them. I’m not implying that they are taking my side when they’re not taking yours – because they aren’t. I’m saying that just because people don’t agree with all it is you claim to have done, doesn’t mean they’re disagreeing with you and everyone else. Maybe they’re ignoring and hoping to move on, but how can they when there are people on your side of the fence trying to push and push and push until they emerge victorious?
Because that’s exactly what’s happening, except no one in this situation has emerged victorious apart from you who has decided to move (run) away – leaving a gaping hole for us to attempt to cement and carry on as though nothing had ever happened. So many people who have chosen to take a side have embarrassed themselves by the way in which they have behaved since then, so the fact that you’ve caused this and have now chosen to run away saddens me because of all the innocence you’ve robbed of people by having gone and affected them. THERE’S NO SIDE TO BE TAKEN IN THIS WHOLE SITUATION. There is the truth and the way in which you go about in accepting it. I am guilty of not attempting to speak to you more politely in the given situation, but that was an issue we resolved and moved on from before you had gone and blown this whole situation way out of proportion. If you were still so upset with the way these issues had been dealt to then why couldn’t you come to me directly? In the eyes of the people that were present that evening – them as my witnesses, we swept all of this under the rug. We had even made it through the Sunday that had followed, and it is after the service when the rug had been swept up from beneath our feet. Since then, things have well and truly gone downhill from there because of you. Not once in any resolving of these issues have you attempted to take ownership of your actions, and that has really been in the back of my mind. People who have decided to choose a side, when there is really no side to be taken, as I’ve said have been robbed of their innocence because they do not accept a form of resolution that is not inclusive of them being right, and because of that – all of us except for you have been suffering because of it. I’ve been decent enough to put up with you since October, but your actions in the last couple of weeks are proof of the shady person you truly are. You’ve appeared to find God since then – good for you, BUT along the way you have lead people we thought to be so close to us astray.
You’ve taken them away from this safe haven of ours, away from their parents who nowadays seem frustrated hurt and alone. I’m not one to judge, but what we see when we see them are signs of hurt, anger, and emptiness because not only are their children now absent within this safe haven, but the fact that they’ve attempted to bring them back with children not listening gives away a sense of bad parenting– therefore one can only assume they weren’t raised the right way and I think that in the back of their mind influences their behaviour or mood towards others when attending gatherings. I don’t care that you’re going, I don’t care that you’ve lead people closest to us away from us, I care about all the people who have wrongly taken your side – whether they are your family or not, and lost their innocence because of your actions. I feel bad for them because karma is an actual thing. You’ve ruined everything and are leaving! You’ve ruined people, taken away people, hurt people and can’t see any of that. I know you won’t read this, but I hope someday you realize all the crap you have caused for the innocent. You are a grown woman, a mother, a wife (after all this happened) - think of that next time you try and start unnecessary drama. You're lucky I am so good with subliminal messages as to not include names. Develop a hobby, find a job or something - don't do what you've done here where you are going to next.
