To the man who once claimed he understood me, you were wrong.
To the man who once claimed he knew me better than anyone, you were wrong.
To the man who once claimed he loved me, you were wrong.
To the man who once claimed he wanted to marry me, you were wrong.
But... To the man who once claimed that I was your better half, you were right, you horrible son of a bitch.
You made me feel horrible about myself.
You beat me down to the point of facing severe depression.
You were the cause of my awful anxiety attacks.
You would see me cry, try to build me up and then get mad when I couldn't stop crying.
You made me question myself, my self-esteem, my own life on occasion.
You made me feel guilty about hanging out with my best friend.
Worst of all, you made me question my own thoughts.
You made me question myself when I knew I was right.
You made me feel so guilty and apologize to you when I did nothing wrong.
You made me question my worth.
You called me fat.
You called me a fucking asshole.
You called me ungrateful.
Your ultimate goal was to tear me down – whether that was intentional or not.
The best part is? You almost succeded.
I'm a much stronger person than you gave me credit for.
That night you called me a fucking asshole and ungrateful.
The way you wanted to possess control over me.
Guess what, you almost won.
Little did you know that made me snap and gain the courage to get the hell away from you.
Now. It's time to thank you.
So...
Thank you for teaching me what isn't okay in a relationship.
Thank you for showing me how much you aren't worth my time.
Thank you for boosting my confidence in possibly the weirdest way ever.
Thank you for ultimately showing me what I don't deserve to handle.
Thank you for making me understand that I don't need you.
I'm seriously ecstatic that I never married you.
I don't regret loving you because you taught me another lesson in what I don't deserve.
I didn't deserve the mental, emotional and verbal abuse you put me through.
I won't give you the power to break me.
You aren't even worth it just like you aren't worth anything to me.
Furthermore, you're just a so-called man.
Sincerely,
A Woman You No Longer Have A Hold On
