I was the girlfriend that I thought every man would want.
I was the girl who surprised my boyfriend with steaks for dinner.
I was the girl who would drive half an hour to my boyfriend's apartment just to surprise him with something small to cheer him up on a bad day.
I was the girl who charmed his parents and his family, and made friends with his older brother and sister.
I was the girl who would pick him up from work when he didn't get off until late at night.
I was the girl who would hand him the remote and be fine with letting him watch whatever boyish thing he wanted to.
I was the girl that gave him self confidence; I reminded him every day how amazingly handsome I thought he was, and how intelligent and kind he had always seemed to be.
I was the girl who would wake him up in the morning with soft kisses and breakfast already made.
I was the girl who loved being intimate with my boyfriend, and we made love nearly every day.
I was the girl who never said no to what he wanted, and who never expected anything in return for all of this.
I was the girl he chased for a year before giving in completely and falling madly in love.
I was also the girl that was broken up with over a phone call, just a few short days before Christmas.
I was the girl who was blindsided and never saw it coming.
I was the girl who trusted and loved my boyfriend with all my heart, and never had a reason not to.
I was the girl whom my boyfriend never really loved.
I was the girl that did everything right, but it didn't actually matter.
Social media taught me that these are the things a man wants in a girlfriend. Kindness, spontaneity, loyalty, love, sex, and endless gestures of my affection.
I was led to believe that this is what a healthy relationship is built off of.
I did everything right, and I still got my heart broken.
To any man who thinks they want a woman, ask yourself, do you really? Do you want the woman, or are you enjoying the chase? Are the words you say to get this woman genuine?
And to any man who believes they would love the relationship I just described, ask yourself, could you truly appreciate it? Are you willing to actually love someone, or do you just think you want to?
When a woman falls, she falls hard. Realize what you're asking for, and appreciate it every single day if you're lucky enough to get it.
I was the girl that gave the nice guy a chance.
I was the girl that got her heart broken.
I am now the girl that will have trouble falling in love again.
I am now the girl that can't trust.
