To You

Subject: To You
From: Anonymous Ex
Date: 15 Jan 2016

So I have been thinking on how to put into words why I feel I can’t show you my music. I think I am getting close, so let me share.

Although our time together was short, I have inexplicable feelings for you that I just can’t seem to shake off. Right now as it stands, you are the proverbial “one that got away”. I am OK with that.

The thing that I am not OK with is that you continue to send me messages here and there as if we were friends. I am sorry, but I cannot consider you as a “friend” in the true sense of the word. You have become much more to me and I can’t just forget about our past like that. To show you any part of me that is as personal as a song is out of the question.

There are a list of other things I have on my mind that I could tell you about. However, the way things are right now, I simply do not feel it is appropriate to bring any of those up. I hold on to a hope that I can share these with you someday, but that would be under circumstances that seem bleak, or at least to me. In any case, it is apparent we have become (somewhat) distant pen pals. This I am also OK with.

And please, please do not think I am acting jealous of your affections to your novio or whatever. There is a big difference between longing and jealousy. I still hold the belief that jealousy is the ugliest thing someone can commit, so I avoid it at all costs. I am happy for you and your guy as long as you and your guy are happy together.

So if you want to continue chatting small talk with me from time to time, then so be it. I meant it when I said I enjoy talking with you. But you know what type of person I am, being sensitive to emotions of others that I care deeply about. I may not know what your thoughts are, but I can feel things.

“Peace and Hugs”