When did you confuse love for sex? When did talking to your sweetheart change? Do you remember when that's what you called me? Do you remember when you would make me feel like I mattered more than anyone else in the world? I'd forgotten what that was like until tonight. Even though it was short lived.
It used to not come to words. We never had to say how we felt it was in a look. In a touch, but that's not what it is anymore. I've guarded myself against it because when I'm not I get hurt. You've turned into someone I don't know anymore. I guess I have too. I can't sit here and pretend that I wasn't hoping we would be ok in the end. Those are just silly thoughts and hopes of someone that still cared.
I Can't care anymore. I can't sit here and pretend I'm ok with who you are now and what you are doing. I can't turn a blind eye and act like everything will work out in the end. I can't pretend that we mean something anymore. We haven't for a long time.
Once upon a time I fell in love with my best friend. Then, that ended.
My choices are few and far between. Few being smart. I'm gonna work on me.. Maybe if I continue to say it, I will convince myself. I don't love you anymore.
