Toxic friends

If I'm phony because I learned to live my life without ultimatums from another, then so be it. That is perfectly fine by me. I've had my reasons for cutting you off. Sure, there may be love for you there. BUT! I will not allow it to blindly walk me through the same murky abyss, I once did because of you. I'm done living my life bending over and pleasing others as well as taking on battles that aren't mine. If you want to live your life being hated by everyone and engaging in never ending drama.. Then that's your choice, not mine. Life is cruel as it is without further indulging in negativity and tearing one another apart. Like is it really that hard to be genuine? What's the point of harassing others or causing problems that were NEVER there to begin with? Why can't you be happy for others and live YOUR life for crying out loud. THE WORLD IS NOT OUT TO GET YOU. When will you realize that??? But you're never in wrong either, right? Isn't it funny how that always works.. Makes you wonder, huh? You preach about living life positively, yet you're one of the most negative people I know and it's sad really..You weren't always like that either. But you chose the path to lead and apparently this is what works for you. If only you would realize how better off you would be, if you focused your energy on bettering your own life. Instead of being so absorbed by your past and those around you. We have been on different paths for a while now and I lingered longer than I should've, in hopes you would have a wake up call. Evidently that is not the case and some things never change. So it's time to fully move on from you. Maybe once you stop pushing all those who care for you away, you'll truly realize what was always in front of you. You can't expect people to stick around if you constantly treat them unjustly. Take a step back and try to see it from other angles, instead of being so self absorbed in that denial. It's all about that perspective. We all have our life's to live and we can't dedicate it to you because you don't know how to fully stand by yourself. I've done all that I could to make amends but the relief of walking away, has become so much stronger than it's ever been. All in all, I still hope your life turns out to be all you wanted it to, but you need to start doing some serious soul searching kiddo and making better choices. Trust me, nothing good comes from rock bottom and you're pretty much there.