This is a shout out to my ex...
Thank you. Thank you for allowing me to trust you, and to fall for you, only to cheat on me.
I'm not mad about the fact that you cheated. Honestly. I'm glad you did now.. At the time it was the worst thing I'd ever gone through. And I've had some awful times in my life! But if you hadn't done it I'd still be under your spell. I'm so glad I'm not.
Thank you for treating me so badly when we were together. For the times you belittled me in public or in front of our friends. For making me change myself so you'd love me more. For walking out after huge arguments, leaving me on my own to deal with the panic attacks I had because of you.
Thank you for making me feel like I wasn't good enough. That I couldn't speak to you about how I felt about anything. That I wasn't welcome in your life.
But most of all, thank you for all the issues you've left me with. You can't treat someone like you did to me and it not have a lasting affect on them.
I am now with the most amazing man. And I love him more than I ever thought I could love anyone. But because of you I am untrusting, anxious, scared, no.. TERRIFIED, of things going wrong, of being let down. I am clingy, angry and scared and it's all because of how you treated me.
I try so hard to get a grip on it all, but sometimes, like today, it all gets the better of me and all my insecurities come out at once in a jumbled mess. And who has to deal with it? Not you... The man that is exactly that, a man. Man enough to stick by me through everything. Man enough to never let me down like you did. Man enough to pick me up off the floor when I'm broken and patch me back up.
So yeah, this is a shout out to my ex. If it wasn't for you, I may have never realized that I deserved better and found a real man who loves me. Flaws and broken-ness and all..
Thank you for setting me free
