An Open Letter to the People Who Saved Me
I was just another college freshmen. I was hanging out with the cool baseball guys on campus, making everlasting memories with my new found friends, and doing just the minimum to get by in class. I was having the time of my life until things took an unexpected turn and I fell into the darkest depression of my life. I felt helpless and out of control. I tried to give my life some type of control by turning to self-harm. I’m not asking for you pity, I just want to thank those who were there for me during my black out.
To my Mom,
Thank you for never giving up on me during my darkest hours. You reminded me how important it was to not give up on my faith and stay true to God. You gave me a shoulder to cry on when I needed it. You never became frustrated with me, when at times you should’ve been. I closed you out at times to try to hide from my reality, you helped to break down those walls with your unconditional love & I am forever grateful for having such an amazing mother like you. I could never thank you enough. You’re my MVP and I love you more than you will ever know.
To Abbey,
You are one of the most amazing individuals I’ve ever come in contact with. You shared your inspiring story with me, you shared your views on God, you stayed with me when I felt alone, and you ate countless amounts of mozzarella sticks with me. You reminded me that at times we may struggle, but that doesn’t mean it’s the end. You helped me stay true to who I am and not let a setback ruin me. I cherish the memories we made and I cant wait to make some more. You’re my forever friend, I love you Abbs!
To Jamie,
We most certainly have our ups and downs, but what matters to me most is that you stood by my side when I was down. You gave me a sense of peace during our weekends spent at the apartment with the guys. You constantly reminded me that I had you by my side with your daily I love you texts, late night facetimes, and phone calls every couple hours. You helped me to understand that it’s okay not to be okay. You were like one of those twins who feels the others pain and that’s why you never let me lose sight of the light at the end of the tunnel. I am forever grateful for you and all that you’ve done for me. You’re my soul sister forever. I love you!
To Olivia,
You’re my best friend and I couldn’t imagine my life without you. You are constantly there to remind me that its okay to ask for help when you need it most. You never judged me, even when I didn’t make the best choices. You supported my decisions, even if you didn’t agree with them at first. If I had one of my bad days you were always there offering to drive 2 plus hours just to cuddle with me. You gave me the strength I needed to push through. You’re the Chrissy Teigen to my Ayesha Curry, my cup of hot chocolate on a cold day, & I truly believe that you are my soulmate. I love you to the Luna and back!
To Mike Stud,
You became my backbone and my biggest inspirations. Your music brought happiness into my life, when I didn’t think it was possible. You reminded me that I was strong even during my weakest moments. You gave me a sense of hope by reminding me to let go of the bad days and hold on to the good ones. During our meeting in Philadelphia you reminded me that I need to be here, because life is worth living. You became my light at the end of the tunnel that Jamie was constantly reminding me of. I’m forever grateful for all of your support. Xoxoxo
The love I have for each of these individuals may be different in its own way, but one thing that remains the same is that they all played a major part in saving me. I am forever grateful, because without you guys I’d be way past gone. I’ve put all my trust in God and because of that I’m currently four months clean of any self-harm. My message to anyone who may be facing a hard time is to never give up, believe that you can overcome this and you will. Life gets better stick around to see it.
- Love, Jasmine
