Dear Ex Boyfriend,
Well, here we are. The last words I texted you were, "I love you, Goodbye." Even though that won't be the last message I send to you, I still need to get my stuff.
There was always an air to this relationship, I must admit. Maybe it was the lingering feelings for multiple girls you had when we first started dating. I didn't get to know you that long before we did, anyway. Although, the same goes for me.
Allow me to introduce the old me, just about to enter high school.
Hi, my name is ------.
I just got out of a relationship I broke up because I wanted a "fresh start," I will later figure out that that was awful of me and I will regret it for a long long time. I'm a 1st year marching band member, and it takes up a lot of my time. Most of my relationships haven't gone too smoothly, so forgive me if I shy away when you talk to me.
If you get to know me, you'll find out about the abusive relationships beforehand, although I was young, they affected me just as bad if not worse than anyone else.
Simple.
Hello, my name is the same.
I am about to enter my junior year of high school. I've worked really hard to go to a new school that i've strived for ever since i've found out about it.
I dated this guy named ---- for a year and 1/2. ---- was still in love with his ex when we first started dating, so much so in fact, that after a week of us dating he broke up with me to make out with her in drama class. But I wouldn't come to know that until we were back together. I also would come to know that ALSO during this one week period of time that you tried to get with another girl, who rejected you not only because she was interested in someone else, but because she knew that it was wrong of you to do this if you and I really were just on a "break." Well, we get back together.
I was so attracted to him, his personality, his appearance, his passion, so it was no wonder I fell so hard for you and everything that you do. Want to know what I wasn't attracted to?
The constant talk of your ex girlfriend.
The hours upon hours I would wait for a response from you, for absolutely any reason I could think of.
The lies.
Oh let me repeat that again, the lies.
Let's scream that one from the rooftops.
You shattered and destroyed my trust I hold in everything and everyone and no matter how much time goes by I will never be able to trust humans as well as I once could.
----, between you and I, if you really "loved" that girl from Texas, you wouldn't have hurt her so many times.
If you really "loved" me, you wouldn't have had to make a choice between me and other things so many times.
If you loved me, time would be irrelevant. It would feel cramped, but if you loved me you would've spent it with me. I think one of the most sickening things is how much I pushed us doing something, ANYTHING together and you just thought it was the worst thing you could've possibly sacrificed.
