Dear you,
I remember hearing about you before I had dated him. I remember how he would call me and tell me how you had been screaming at him (again) and I remember how sad and frail he was when I first met him. How we grew into close-knit friends and how he shared secrets with me he wouldn't anyone else. Like that time you had tried to claw at his eyes during another fight or, how you had smacked him across the head with a beer bottle. Don't fret, he's mentioned good times as well. Like that time he tore his shirt trying to help your little sister over a fence because she wanted to go exploring. I remember when he had to leave and you made "love" to another man one week later. How does it feel to know that he smiles bigger and brighter than ever now? How does it feel to know you stripped a person down to nothing for nothing but your own petty wishes? I hope it feels like hell. I remember how for the first six months he and I dated he would flinch when I raised my arm, even slowly or how he would ask if I was mad at him if I got too quiet. I remember him crying and telling me how good it felt to feel like a person. And how I stroked his hair as he laid in bed with me after that. However, despite all of these accusations, I have no opinion on you. To me, you're just a troubled soul who doesn't know what she needs yet. And then again maybe we're in the same boat. I know how you would lock yourself in your room for three days so you could restrict yourself from eating and how calories consumed the majority of your thoughts. Always hating yourself, always taking it out on others because how else could you cope? Sometimes it's the people we love most that end up getting hurt because we believe they'll always love us. I want to understand you. And even though everyone and their mother can call you nasty names, all I see is a wounded animal. And I don't want to help, but I want you to know I stand in solidarity with you. For how much you've emotionally scarred the love of my life I'm surprised I can even give you that. I hope one day you can realize that what you did wasn't okay and I hope you can realize you're worth more than what you think. Because he is.
