I wish I would have told myself that I was too young. in middle school when I was talking to boys I didn't know online, I wish I would have told myself that I was too young.
I wish that when I was in eighth grade and saw a boy's private parts for the first time, I could've told my younger self that I was too young.
I wish that at 15 I would have known that I was too young. That even though "everyone" around me was doing it, I was too young. I was not ready, and he was not that dreamy. I wish I would have known that I was too young to be falling "in love" and having sex to prove it. I wish that I could tell my 15 year old self that him breaking up with me because of the "sexual tension" in our relationship was a blessing, not a reason to give him every piece of me.
I wish I would have told myself that I could enjoy school without a relationship, meet people, have fun, participate in school events, and enjoy being young. When I was 16, I realized that I was too young. I realized while staring at a stick praying that I wouldn't see two pink lines that I was too young and right then, I wished I could've told myself that I was too young. When I saw those two little pink lines, I knew that I was too young. I knew that I was not capable of supporting another human being considering I had no job and no income. I could've leaned on my parents for support but I knew that it wasn't their problem. In that moment, I wish I could've told myself that I was too young. I was too young to be making this decision on my own, I was too young to have the father of my unborn child helping hide this secret of mine. I was too damn young to decide on my own and I was too damn young to be going through that without my mom. I'm 21 now, and I still feel too young. The decisions that I made at 12, 13, 14, and 15 were decisions that I should not have been making so young. The decision I made at 16, crying in a planned parenthood lobby, was not one I should have been making on my own. I needed my mom. I needed someone. I was too young. I was too young to realize when I decided to have sex for the first time that I truly was just too young to be doing so. It didn't matter what the people around me were doing, I WAS TOO YOUNG.
I wish that I could go back and tell my 15 year old self that I didn't have to, he wasn't worth all of the trouble, I would be better off waiting..... I wish I could've told myself that I was too young.
