To the one who doesn't love me back.

Subject: To the one who doesn't love me back.
Date: 24 Aug 2016

First, I need to tell you that I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I held on for as long as I did without being completely honest with you. I thought you knew how I felt. I thought that you were stringing me along; that you were slowly destroying me. And I'm sorry for holding it all against you. Its not your fault that you don't love me. You didn't mean to hurt me. I did that to myself. I destroyed myself by loving you. By stringing myself along in hopes that one day you would feel the same. But you don't. And that's okay!

Second, I want to say thank you. Thank you for being such an amazing friend to me all these years. Thank you for being there for me in my darkest times. You honestly saved my life. You were the breath of air that I finally got after I had been drowning for so long. You brought me out of the darkness and lead me back into the light. And for that I will forever be grateful. I fell in love with you because you saved my life. And I know I shouldn't have, that you were just being a friend to me. But I fell for you anyways.

And finally, I have to tell you goodbye. You're never going to love me the way that I love you. I would have followed you anywhere. Anything you needed I would give. I built my entire life around you, and you didn't ask for that. You don't want that. So I have to let you go. I have to save the little piece of my heart that I have left so it can heal itself. But it won't be able to heal with you in the picture. So I'm writing you this; so that you'll know why I'm disappearing from your life. I don't want you to think that you're at fault, because you're not. I just want you to be happy. And you're happiness doesn't include me. I hope you finally find someone who will love you the way that I did. And I hope you never have to feel this pain. Because this is the hardest thing I will probably ever do. So please don't hold any of this against me, because all I ever did was love you more than I should have.

The heart you didn't mean to break