Dear My true love,
I am truly sorry for everything I have put you through. You are the most amazing and beautiful woman I have ever met. My love and passion for you runs deeper in me than I ever thought possible. Although you may now feel different I know you are my soulmate, we think the same things at the same time, we have the same sense of humour and the passion is more electric that I think 95% of the population would ever witness.
Despite all this I am not the man you deserve, you deserve much, much more than I. I held on to a failing life and felt no ability to cut it off, I held on to the loose ends and will never understand why I couldn't just cut it off completely. In the process I dragged you along and hurt you in the hope one day I would find the strength and we would be together. The truth is I am a lot weaker than I ever imagined and I will pay the price loving you for the rest of my life and never being able to have you when you offered me everything.
I want you to know that my feelings for you will never change and were never a front to get what I wanted. You brought out a side of me I've never met. I love you with all my heart, my heart is permanently scared with you.
I will never escape my feelings for you, I just hope you can find happiness.
I wish I could be more articulate in my writings as I know if I could express in words how I feel you would believe me.
I will say goodnight to you through my window every night and always be thinking of those eyes and that smile that would light up the darkest room.
Please keep the key to my heart safe,
All my love forever xx
