to the one that got away

Subject: to the one that got away
From: smol.
Date: 12 Jan 2022

We all have childhood sweethearts. We all have first loves and great loves. Mine just happened to be the three of them combined.

To Chester, this is for you.

We were something that was never meant to happen. Because if we were meant to be, it wouldn't have ended that way. But time with you is time worth spending or wasting. No one understands me the way you do. No one sees me the way you do. No one can fill my gaps the way you do. No one would ask me what book I read after disappearing for 5 hours. No one would sing with me during calls. No one would be my selfie dump. No one would be the Chester that I need in my life.

People know that I was so gone for you. Even after 2 years of being separated, you're still the only one I'm willing to live for. You, Chester, bewitched every part of me. I couldn't function well after I heard you moving on. Hell, it was supposed to happen but it still stung. I revolved my life around you because you are the only one worth watching before.

I hope you know how much I love and appreciate you. I hope you know that I am always proud of you. I hope you know that I would have supported and helped you.

Chester, if we see each other in the future, I hope you know that I will always be happy to see you. You are the love of my life, Ches. My life would be a total zero without you. I'm glad you came.