To My Friend's Exes.

I hold an intense anger for a select few of you. As much as I want to be able to forgive you for what you did to him, I just can't. Not at this time. You are the reason why he is afraid to be in a relationship. I love this man more than anything, but because of you, we can't truly be together. You have damaged him in a way that I wonder if he will ever truly be the same again. Every day, I try to think of ways to show him how much I love him, how amazing he is, and to alleviate his fears of relationships. Because of you, I fear that he will always have lingering doubts that I will hurt him in the way that you have. Hearing all of the horrible things that you have done to him and the way you have made him feel breaks my heart. I feel how much he loves me, I know it's there. I also feel the fear, but I will not leave him. Not because I feel like there's a hope of us actually having a relationship, but because we love each other. I love him in a way that you never claimed to have loved him. When you truly love someone, you don't treat them the way you treated him. He did not deserve to be taken advantage of in the many ways you did. Holding onto this anger for each of you is doing nothing but hurting, but it is difficult to let go of that anger. You each took a piece of him away, and now I'm doing my best to help him find those pieces. He runs away, a lot. From me, from other friends, from family. All because he had been hurt too many times. I'm going to show him what it means to truly be loved, and someday, we will be able to really be together. I sincerely hope life gives you everything you ever deserved.