To my Ex-best friend

Dear Ex-Best Friend, Writing you this letter to understand where I was and where I am now. 1. The lie and the truth, all in one. I wanted to write this letter but didn’t know where to start. I’ll start with the day that ended us to this day. One of the hardest days I have ever gone through. Losing someone to death is easier to cope with then what happened to us. So many times I hear quotes about best friends and even love, which makes me think of us. Don’t get me wrong not in a romantic way but the in-separation, the bond that lasts a life time. To say we are happy where we are in life is a lie, we both know it. Where our lives are at is wonderful but the road we took to get here wasn’t. We should have walked it together and carried each other when needed. Instead we both took detours that went in separate directions. Burning the bridge when we crossed and never looking back. Happiness isn’t only about where we are now; it is about that road we traveled. We should not have given up on each other to get where we are now. 2. The Regret/The Hate The day is one that will burn a hole in my heart forever. It’s something I cannot take back. It’s also something you cannot take back. The fight was 50/50, the walking away was 50/50, neither of us stood there waiting for the other to come back. At first the hurt kept coming and getting worse, but then the hate started to overpower that. The only reason I was getting over the hurt was by hating you. When listening to Over You by Miranda Lambert, I think of you. “You went away, how dare you, I miss you.” The “you went away”, is the hurt. The “how dare you”, is the hate. The “I miss you”, where I am now. 3. Soul mate A person can have more than one soul mate. We have our romantic soul mates, our husbands. And then there is the person that is your best friend, shadow, and soul mate. We had a bond so strong, that we could more the less read each other’s mind. Remember all the things I knew before you told me; just by the way you acted. I little sparkle or tear in your eye, told me everything. Words were never needed. Everyone wanted to be us, when they heard one of our names, the other name followed. We were famous in a small town and the biggest break-up of the century. 4. Always kept a watch I had secretly created a Facebook using a name of someone we knew, knowing you would accept it. I wanted to see where your life was taking you. I may not have been there in person, but I knew everything that was going on. The day you said “I do”, the day you bought your first home, and even the day your daughter was born. 5. Where now? Now, we are here but where do we go from here? So many people affected by us, which are still hurt. We have forgiven, but they haven’t. Guess the strongest hatred still didn’t keep us apart. Just remember to always dance. Love, Your Ex-Best Friend