After waiting almost four years to be with him, and telling yourself "I won't do anything to screw this up", you did. In as little as two months.
And your entire world came crashing down on a Monday afternoon. You dont know why you lied, and most of all you want to take it back. You screamed and cried when he left. And the day you went to get your stuff, you were okay till about halfway home.. but by 12:30am on Friday. Your mind was in a completely different place. And although you miss him dearly. And are now bored to death every night. Your heart and mind are in a slightly peaceful state.
He said "I do love you, I never said I didn't" and he told someone you talk to about everything that he does love you, but can't trust you. And that you have to show he can trust you again. And he's not stringing you along. But he's ignoring you. And you dnt know what to make of anything. Because literally nothing he has done makes sense. And it sure as hell doesn't seem like he loves you.. so you know what. I'm gonna love myself. I'm gonna make myself happy. I'm gonna do as I damn well please and make something of myself. I will never let another man put me down and walk away at the slightest bump in the road. Learning to love yourself is the best thing you can do. Know your worth and don't ever settle for less.
And you know what else? Remember even if it was your fault, the fact he left without even trying to understand why, or even slightly trying to work it out, that's his loss. "Never ignore someone who loves and cares about you, because one day you could lose the moon because you were too busy counting stars"
