It's taken me this long to just say it out loud, you broke me Bear, I am broken because of you. Six months into our marriage you started cheating on me, I just turned a blind eye, because I didn't know how to fix what was happening. At twenty two years into our marriage I still didn't know how to twist myself into the hot pretzel you wanted, and kept looking on line for behind my back. The cheating never stopped, all the while I just kept blaming myself for not being good enough, thin enough, passionate enough in bed. The harder I tried the more emails, and really vile pictures showed up on your computer. And you never even tried to hide them from me, and then you would say you had no idea where they came from. We both knew I wasn't stupid, what we knew for sure was that I was just very tired in every way possible. I gave up, then one day i walked out. You never even fought for me to stay, all I wanted to hear was that you loved me enough to ban all the other women from your life. Why won't you just divorce me? Even after all you did for twenty eight years to break me, I still gave you my inheritance to start over, I've given you just about all I have to give, except cutting my heart out, and serving it to you on a platter. I'm number now, withering in a profound sorrow everyday. I no longer care about healing, or moving on. How does it feel to know that you alone, and your incredibly selfish actions distroyed another person that did all she could to love you? You stabbed me in the heart a thousand times, I'm done. I'm damaged, and broken in every way because of you.
