To the girl that I love with everything I have

Subject: To the girl that I love with everything I have
Date: 18 Feb 2016

Before I begin, I want to thank you. You still are my everything, you've given me so much that I will always cherish. You hold a special place with me. And I will never forget you.

We had so many fond times together in Skype and texting. I tried to give you anything you possibly anything I could. I bought you games, and now I'm even buying you and your parents a house, all because I care about you, love you and want you to be happy.

But you betrayed me, you could never choose between me or the other guy. and always led me to believe I would be the one to be chosen, and then he faded out of your life. I was the only one, or so I thought.. Then a few months later another guy comes along and now you want to date him, you want to say yes to him. and eventually you DID say yes to him. you left me for another guy, you lead me to believe it'd be me and you lied. I began to hate myself because of that. I thought I wasn't good enough. I still sit here to this day wondering what I did for you to do that to me.

To this day I still view myself as a pathetic piece of crap who fell for your tricks, your lies, and your deception.

I eventually became best friends with your sister, and she despises what you did to me, She took all the time she could to help me heal, she literally did everything she could. And she's married at that. She has been the best friend I could ever ask for. Sometimes I wish I had fallen for her instead of you.

Then your "boyfriend" broke up with you because of the distance. He couldnt handle it. Everyone is sure that that's an excuse and there is another girl but you don't care. He's playing you like you played me. And I did everything within my power to make you happy while that was going on. And what did I get? Nothing. Not a thank you or anything. You tossed me aside AGAIN and at the first sign of him wanting you back you ran as fast as you could. You left me in the dust so many times I cant even begin to count.

Yet, I forgive you each and every time.. I would give anything, literally anything to have you as mine. I pray each day it will happen, but in the back of my mind I know it cant happen. I'm not good enough for you.

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry. I cannot be your friend anymore. I can't move on with life while I hold these feelings for you. I know that other gy left you like me, and I know I promised I'd always be there, but I have to protect myself. I keep wanting to wish you the very worst and hope you pay for what you did, but I'm not like that. I'm better than that. I hope you have a good life without me.