To My Depression,
The time has sadly, but gladly came. I can't say, I'm going to miss you, but I will remember you. You were always there for me, in the darkest of my days. You "helped" me throughout the last ten years. You were one of my closest best friends, you were, also, one of my worst enemies.
You scared me to death. You put unneeded worry in my mind. You made deals with anxiety, to see how long I can tolerate you both. You saw the tears, you heard the meltdowns. You watched me fall down several times, and made me pick myself up again, each and every time. Though each time I got back up, I grew stronger than before.
You tricked me, into thinking that I had no friends. You helped me ruin the prestigious relationships that I had going for me, back then. And you watched the people I love, try their hardest to get me away from you, but I was too attached to you, to leave you.
Depression, while you may be in my mind forever. I will not, and I repeat, NOT, live with you forever. We had our moments. We had our celebratory nights. But with the future I want and am headed for, there is and NEVER will be any room for you.
You know, Depression, it really hurt, when I was to the point of killing myself. Not just once, but it has happened four times in my life. And I am only 18 years old!!! How is this possible? It has been three years, since I have tried to commit suicide and two years, since I have let go of thinking of committing suicide. No, this was not an easy path. And Depression, you knew this. You even tried reverting me, back into my old lifestyle.
Well, I have conquered you and am ready for us to finally be apart. These last months were the hardest though. Because truly, I did not want to let you go. I was comfortable with you. Because you were always there for me, but in reality so were/are others. I won't miss the 2 A.M. nights of panic and fear anymore, and the constant all-nighters/days with you. These times will be filled, now. You were my best friend and worst enemy for ten years, and now you're neither. You're nothing. Like I was nothing to you.
