It has been 15 years since I first found out about your affair, and since that day there has not been a single day that I have not thought about it or wept about it. You told me the day I asked you that nothing happened, you only spoke on the phone and you would never see her or speak again. Those were all lies! I believed you because you are my husband who I love and trust and I believed would tell me his feelings, all of them just as I always share mine with you.
I thought you were a grown man and would talk to me about your needs, desires and thoughts just like we had been from the beginning, but this time you said nothing. You led me to believe all was going well as you were sneaking around with her behind my back. Lying to me while I worked everyday and took care of our 3 children and our home.
When I heard your voicemail messages from her I died inside and when I asked you for the truth and why you did it you said, " well look at you, you wear the same clothes, the same hair, you don't fix yourself up and you bring nothing to the table".
But all of that is water under the bridge now. I am trying very hard to get those thoughts out of my head everyday.
You apologized, said it was a mistake and want me to never talk about my pain or your affair.
I want you to know, I did not ask for any of this. I was here from the beginning, by your side trying my best with what little we had. Trying to make a home for our family and all you could think of was getting in some skanks pants over a period of 10 years.
Thank you for ruining the best years of my life.
I can never get those years back. I hope she was worth it. Now I am old, I have an std thanks to you and am reminded everyday by my memory what a screwed up life I have.
Your wife (you know, the one who washes your clothes, makes your meals, handles your bullshit!)
