To my Future love:
To whom you may be, because at the moment I have no clue who you are. I have no idea where you're but I am writing this to you before we even met so that you know how I felt before you came along and how our life together will be. I may not be able to predict the future or know what it holds. I can predict how I will be to you. I know myself and what I want with my other half. I have enough experience in relationships to know what I do and don't want. I know exactly who I'll be to you. Before, I explain how I will treat you. I want you to know I hope you're a mess. I hope you've already gotten your heart broken. I hope you've been showed what love isn't. I hope you've been at your worst with your past, or present relationships. I only hope that because I don't want you to go through any of that with me. I don't want to be just another person in your life that came and left. I want to stay in your life, I want to watch you grow and grow with you. I want to show you what love really is. Love is so kind. Loving someone shouldn't and isn't a hassle. It's effortless and fun. Loving someone, truly loving someone is a blast. I loved the wrong person and can't imagine how it will be to love the right person. You. I can wait to love you. Ive currently been single for three years after a seven year relationship. I am still not ready to be in one for a few reasons. My first reason is I'm still a mess with my life. I have a lot to do to straighten it out. I am not fully happy. I'm not happy where I am in life. I don't want you or anyone to make it better. I need to make it better for myself. That way I am the best version of myself for you. Ill probably always be some-what of a mess but you don't need the worst version of me. I want you to add to my happiness not completely be my only happiness. I want to be happy with my life , in which I am but still have some things to better myself. I'm not ready to worry about someone else's feelings before mine. That isn't fair to you. I want to be able to take your feelings into consideration before I do something that you might not like instead of just doing it without caring about your feelings. I hope you come at a right time where it's a good time for the both of us to be together. Once, I am ready I am diving in for you, for us, for our future. Once, our story starts it won't ever end. We will make many chapters of our lives together. I will make sure to love you each and every single day. I won't allow myself to get comfortable with you and forget about texting you good morning. I won't stop telling you how gorgeous you're and love you and all your flaws. I'll accept you just the way you are. I won't control you or stop you from doing the things you want to do in life. I won't ever tell you what to do or lie to you. If I lie to you it's to surprise you! I won't ever call you out of your name unless it's gorgeous. You'll be my gorgeous. I'll make you feel like the happiest gal on this earth. I will love you so deep that you won't believe that someone like me exists. Everyone before me are just practices before the real game! I will be the real deal. I don't want to consume your whole life I want to be a component of you life. I don't want you or I to be so into each other that we forget about everything else that makes our life. Like, family, friends, dreams, jobs, hobbies and success. I won't allow you to make me your "All", I want you to live an amazing life. I want you to do the things that scare you. I want you to face your fears. I want you to travel to the places you dream of. I want you to make endless memories with your friends and families. I just want to help you be the best girl you want to be. I want to accompany you in your life not consume every bit of it. I want to share all your constant changes that will come to you. So, i can wait for you to come along. It'll only be that much worthy when you arrive. I want us to be our own personas , who share a life together. I don't ever want you to ask me permission to do anything. You're an adult and you don't need to ask me or anyone for permission for anything. If you would like my advice on things, I'll gladly advice you. I want you to be your own person. I want you to look back on your life and be happy about what you have done. I just want to hold your hand while you go through life and be your number one fan. I will always be in your corner. I will love and protect like I love and protect myself. I'll treat your heart as if it were my own. I won't do anything to crush it. I won't ever make you doubt my loyalty or love for you. You will feel it. Real feelings are hard to explain and my love for you will only be known by feelings and actions. I promise to treat you like a woman. I promise to always be understanding. I know we will bump heads but we will always talk it out. I will give you , your space when you need and request it. At times I get lonely and wish you would just arrive already. Then, I realize I only want you to arrive out-of-loneliness which is another reason why I don't want you to arrive, yet. I need to be fully content and happy with myself before you come. I won't give you the responsibility of my happiness. I need to and will make myself happy. Only then you will truly experience me whole. I can't wait to know everything about you once you do arrive. I can't wait for you to tell me about your childhood. I can't wait for you to tell me about everything before I existed in your life. I can't wait to meet your family and love them like my own. I can't wait to build relationship with your close friends. I can't wait for you guys to share your crazy stories or funnest times you guys have had together. I can't wait to know everything about you. I promise our life together will be fun! We will be best friends, and lovers. It's going to be such a blast!! So, until then, I'll be working on myself. I'll be busy with making myself and life better. I can't wait for you to experience the best version of myself! I hope you're ready for endless laughs and fun! It's going to be an honor to share this life together! So, until we met have fun. Be crazy, get into trouble. Fall hard and get back up. Laugh hard until your stomach hurts. Cry when you need to. Do your thing. Make amazing memories so you can tell me all about them. I'll be waiting for you, doll.
Thank you in advance for existing. Even though I don't know what you look like , I know you will be the best face my eyes have ever seen. As each day passes it's just another day closer to meeting you.
See you sooner than later, gorgeous.
Sincerely, Your number one fan.
