Well Hi,
I'm not sure if you'll ever read this but if you do here's the truth behind us getting back together. At the start I didn't want it...at all. I hated you. I hated you for treating me the way you did and not appreciating it. The smallest things that mattered to me, you didn't bother with even though we had talked about them before. You took everything for granted and I knew it. And I knew it was going to end soon, I just didn't know when. I loved you too much to let go and you cared for me too much to say good bye. And some how at the end of the day, I always found more love to give. At the beginning of 2016 we broke up and I was shattered, but relieved. I could breathe. No more accusations. No more fighting. No more crying. Just me.
Now it's October and we've been talking for about a month and a half again. Things feel just like they did when we started dating in 2013. Effortless, free and real. But I'm still so scared to open up completely again because I don't want us to go down the wrong path again and I'm scared you'll hurt me again. Things aren't perfect by any means and you still say things that make me feel some type of way...but I feel loved again.
You messed up and some members of my family know it. And they always ask, "Why in the hell would you take him back?!". Well simply because... I love you. I know what makes me happy. You. You make me happy. Life is too short to waste it unhappy.
I know it's not going to be easy but I'll be damned if I let some hard times get in the way of what I'm focused on. Me and you. Us. Together happily. THAT'S what's I'm focused on. I love you. I love you more than you could ever know. We'll get through everything and be strong in the end. We will be us.
Appreciate me. Love me. Understand me. Listen to me to fix the problem and not to defend. I just wanna be heard in our relationship this time. Let's do this right. Let's do us right.
