Dearest Mr. Know It All,
First off, congratulations on your engagement! I am truly happy for you and i'm beyond glad that you finally found the girl of your dreams. There is something I need to tell you...
I know its been 5 years since you've been gone, might seem strange that i suddenly built my courage to speak to you. Every now and then I take a trip down memory lane especially to the times you were a huge part of my life. My favorite memory of us is the day we first met, Christmas'12. You were rehearsing with your band and i couldn't help but dreamily gaze at your every move. I'm so glad we met and you made the first move by speaking to my young and naive self. Our endless phone calls until dawn arguing about anything and everything is the highlight of it all. I still sometimes miss hearing your soothing voice before I fall asleep and how you would call me darling. I am forever thankful to you for teaching me that love is beyond our control. That love is something that just happens unexpectedly. That love knows no number. Although I let that last thing later on get into my head, our age. You were 21 and i was 12 when we met. However that age gap between us blurred with the power of our friendship and interests as we went along. Lastly thank you for loving me and appreciating me the way nobody ever has. I know things didn't go as planned I couldn't meet your friends nor did I ever go out for that movie with you that you always wanted to. I know we didn't end whatever it is we had properly otherwise we'd still be talking and I wouldn't have to write this letter to you. I am saddened by the fact that this would be a permanent bittersweet farewell I bid to you. Now that you are almost married I must call it quits to my hope of having you someday. You always said that you wished I was older and now I am except you are too. And what you wanted then for life is what I want now but its too late. But i'll be okay because you've finally found the happiness you looked for and I on the other hand will move with the wind wherever it takes me to. You will always be my lily among a garden of red roses. I really hope nothing but the best for you. Now that i'm more mature I've come to realization that it was you who taught me what love is and how to love and i am eternally grateful for that. You will always have a place in my heart now and forever. And my heart will always skip a beat if I see or hear you be it today, tomorrow or 10 years from now. I will always and I mean always love you. You will forever be my first love and I thank the heavens that it was you.
This is my final goodbye to you...
Have a great life.
Yours truly,
Ana.
