To the person that I am worried now

Subject: To the person that I am worried now
From: Marjorie
Date: 20 Feb 2019


It's been a week since your Mother died. It's been six days since I last saw you. This might be the saddest and probably the hardest week you're having. I wish I could comfort you or message you in a way that can make you ease the pain/sadness you're going through. I miss the times that I can just say HI to you over messenger and you would reply back. Today if I do that you won't return my message anymore. Not unless it's important. #workrelated

I'm worried about you. Sorry I can't help it. I hope you're getting enough sleep from all the wakeful nights. I know you're tired. You are so much tired that night I saw you. You need to rest and you know that. I wish I know how to make a restless person be okay as well. But I don't know because I too myself is tired.

I hope you're taking good care of yourself and your body. I know you do somehow. But please double it? We are surrounded by disease and these days it's like a surprise. Just like what happened to your Mom. It just happened. That's why from there I thought that I should be saying only the truest of things and mean every word I say. Cause who knows if the person I'm talking to right now might be gone tomorrow.

Please take care of your health. I mean that. You went to your HS friend's wake last last time I saw you and now it's your Mother's. See, even you are surrounded by that energy. I'm worried. I am praying for you, always.

I guess this is the only way I can show my love for you - through prayers. I miss you, everyday. I got so much attached to you that I have learned to love you. I hope your wife's there to comfort you on your worst days and nights.

I can always just love you from afar, with a great distance. Know that I am genuinely proud of you. Wherever you go and whatever decision you take, if it makes you You and if it makes you happy, I support it. I always support and believe in you.

There is only one thing that I am most certain of and that is you will always be in my heart. And I'm not sorry for that. x