To paul (lamby)
It's been about 15 years since I met you but not a day passes without me thinking of you. You will probably never ever read this but I just have to get it off my chest, maybe then I'll be able to move on. You would probably think I was crazy anyway, I mean we didn't even kiss, let alone anything else. But still you've been there in my mind, I thought that night we went driving in your car, looking for a hotel, not to do anything you said, just to talk, I thought that was the start of something amazing but I don't know what happened after that, you rang me the next day and seemed so excited about me as I was about you, but that's the last I heard. And everyday since then I've thought about you, I didn't see you for years after that, then I found you on facebook, we began talking and then your account disappeared. That's the last I've heard from you. But still there you are in my mind. I tried to move on, met someone I loved, got married had a family, but still there you are in my mind. I heard you settled down too, and I tried to move on, but I just can't help but think of you, pine for you. I wonder how you're doing, I wonder if you think of me. Still I know this is not fair, not fair to anyone in my life because I'm holding back because of you. Even though you don't have a clue. I'm an actual crazy woman, in love with a man I spent one day with in my whole 35 years on earth, one day. But that's what you did to me, I'd love to be able to just go back and change things, but I can't and deep down I wouldn't change a thing but I can't help but feel there was more meant for us, why didn't it happen? I sometimes wish I could see you one last time but I don't know if that would hurt me more to be honest. I just wanted this off my chest, I just wanted to say I love you because I've held that in for 15 years. You're in my heart, you always have been and you will be until the day I die. From A
